Jemon Chhilam... Jemon achhi... ei goppo!

 (**actual date Wednesday, November 5, 2008)

This is all about how confused and self inconsistent I'm ... and may be not at all... the fact is that I am not going to illustrate anything about this or that... I've to post something that I've written on a paper... at some lost hour of a day... and that I'll do it at any cost now... if you too want to loose an hour of the day in vague u are welcome...

onek somoyi ami bhabi... shudui bhabi... bhabbona bole bolte shuru kori kotha... bolte shuru kori ojosro... tarpor? tarpor nei!! chup kore jai... kintu bhabi...bhabi ar ki je bhabi.... bhabi sob furiye giyeo furoyna keno... abar furoyo... shishir...ghash...komola rod... haay..haay... ar koto!! ar koto chhole bole.. bishhad gyapon...? ar konto fondi? tarpor cholte suru kori... shuru kori bolte... onek abol tabol... onek haasi... hasi pay o! hasir fuljhori... jhori...jhore pori... kintu kahini ar egoyna! golpe nayok nei.. thakleo nayokotter obhab! nayika nei... nei boichitro...nei oikyo!!! shudhui osamonjosyo... ojosro matray bhul... byakoron bhul.. sob bhul !!! "puri"r ghaate kara jeno bole othe... "ami pagol hoye jabo" haah... ar koto? ar koto faaki? chholona ? keu bole "anondomargi"... janina.. hoytoba... !!! kintu he "ananda" tomay "bibek"er pashei manay...! amar chaina...! chaina... beshir bhagito chaina!! "china"r koto unnoti dekho..! bathroomer swochchho tiles e bose bhabi... "aynay amay kemon lage" eta sesh kobe ghotechhilo... "ye kahani fir sahi.." chosmar bhetor dekhi... dhuke jai... aro aro. aarna!! ooof.. aar na! kintu ki ki "na"... Bordhoman e kaashbon achhe... "kaash jhore jay... jhore jay... nodir teere.." jhore jaay.. jhore jaay... ekjug aager reling e shewlao jomechhe... syet syete dine robindra sangeet.. manay ki na bujhte parchhina ! kisher saathe je ki manay ? kake bolbo... kauke nijer che biggo mone hoyna je !! tobu j thak... tobu... thak... tobu cholo aj... daruchinir deshe.. tobu bhalo tobu bhalo... kaash jhoruk... eorope e... tobu thak... shishire ghaaser chholona..! aaj ar kichhui bolona ..."

the ultimate point is "nothing" and around that its circling and circling and circling... getting no way out for something new... cuz theres nothing new... this "nothing" keeps on circling and the new dynamics of this "nothing" appears to be new... thats it and thats all!!