...in search of a lost winter...

***actual date Tuesday, December 16, 2008)

"Ekta bismrito sheet kaal..."

...ei shohore (Kolkata) kokhono kobiguru likhechhilen "shiter haway lahlo nachon amlokir oi dale dale.." sei chhobir jolrong kichhuta chokher patay niye ei shohore asha... dukkher kotha holo amlokir dal uni kothay thik dekhechhilen... "bol pur"... na "sealdah"... na "jora sako"... kothay.... !! ei shohore jodio... era bole shit ... amar haad kapayni ekhono.... karon paharer chheleder kuashay jonmo ar meghe meghe boro howa... jaihok... osob kothay jachchhina... tobe kal raat sotyi kuasha porechhilo amader mathe... besh ghono... sotyi ghono... tai cigarette mukhe dilam... cigarette r dhua ar kuashay tofat thakchhena kichhui... mone porlo kono ek kale likhechhilam kichhu line,

kuasha ar cigarette r dhuya

jokhon ek hoye jay, tomar kotha bhabi

jokhon chaler shishir bristi hoye name

rater shese, tomar kotha bhabi...

jaihok se ek kaler kotha.... kobita prosonge jachchhina... bepar ta holo ei kuasha amake chirokal tenechhe... etotuku mone pore sudhu... onek din hoye gelo... kuasha ar amar eka dekha hoyni pray !! or achhe tara... ashte na ashtei chole jete hobe... ar amar tara nei janalar baire dekhar.... !! janina ke kokhon prothom somoyer concept diyechhilo... sedin thekei prithibir barota bejechhe hoytoba...!! sobar somoyer boro obhab... jaihok... tobu shunte pai... "thanda poregechhe... "/"thanda ebar besh porbe..."/ "shit bodhoy ebar khub ekta nei..." jaihok.... chhotobelay sheet mane sheet i chhilo... Dip jemon bollo... ekhon hritu kota... sotyi amio janina.. thik kota... ar jototai hok... eder ki nijoswo alada kore ostitwo ar achhe kina janina ! tobu... shit pore... jodio poush-magh sheet thakar kotha (ke,kake,kobe ei kotha diyechhilo jigges korben na!) kintu din koyek shit porlei ami chhoriye dei nijeke bichhanar bistor mathe khor kuto jaliye...pashe otiter... ar kichhu korar hoytoba thakte pare... samortho nei !

...samortho onek kichhur i ar nei... protita khone lojjito hochchhi.. here jachchhi... mamar barir goyal ghore... jomano bichuli te oklanto lafiye berano oi chheletar kachhe... here jachchhi... oi chheletar kachhe jar priyo chhilo ekdin "chunga-pitha"... je biriyani ki jontur nam ta jan to na! ... sei chheleta... jar kachhe khorer toiri "mera-meri"r ghor chhilo... "inox" theke ontoto "undefined" gun beshi sukher....(kototuku thik... bujhate parlam na... hoytoba nijeo bujhe uth te parchhina!)... asol kotha... shit jokhon ashe... kuasha jokhon pore... amar kachhe egulo obhishap hoyei ashe.... jemon manusher kachhe sobcheye dukkher jinis hochchhe sobcheye khusir jiniser onuposthiti...!